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public universal friend
“I am that I am.”
—the friend when asked if male or female
in 1776, jemima wilkinson, aged 24, was dying from typhus in cumberland, rhode island. when the fever broke, however, the person who awoke called themselves the public universal friend (1752-1819), claiming jemima had died and and they were reanimated to preach the word of the lord. the friend had no gender and eschewed gendered pronouns. if someone asked if their name was jemima, they would quote Luke 23:3—“thou sayest it.” if someone asked if they were male or female they would simply respond, “I am that I am.” they dressed androgynously, often dressing in the style of men at the time, and spoke with a voice deeper than that expected of a woman. the friend gained a significant following throughout new england based on their preaching of quaker ideals that included abstinence, abolition, and salvation, and ultimately established a society in upstate new york. though the friend died in 1819, the society of universal friends existed into the 1860s.
unsurprisingly, there was controversy surrounding the friend’s claims to be a messiah, particularly as more and more religious splinter groups cropped up in revolutionary-war-era america. at the time, many claimed the friend a hoax. some scholars, however, suggest that the friend emerged out necessity, since the options for a 24-year-old unwed woman in colonial rhode island were relatively slim. regardless, the fact that the friend identified as genderless even in the 1700s is a testament to the reality that queer folks have always been here.
the public universal friend, a portrait from david hudson's defamatory 1821 biography.
about the song
public universal friend, painted by john mathies (1816). from yates county history center.
the public universal friend is such an interesting character! since we’ll never know the actual truth behind their transformation, the biggest idea I wanted to explore was one that I think every member of the lgbtqia+ community knows—that you alone know yourself best.
that I am
have I ever told you how when I was twenty four
the fire came for me
where once was darkness light abounded and like iron at the forge
I shifted into being
either/or? neither for me
call me by god’s chosen name
I know the words that feel right for me
“I am that I am” that I am
a handsome woman they would call me but we know that’s not quite right
I’m a spirit in a vessel
and though they doubted my belief and the flesh I lay my hands on
I am wholly essential
either/or? neither for me
call me by god’s chosen name
I know the words that feel right for me
“I am that I am” that I am
cut your hair or let it grow
take things fast or take them slow
it’s your body make it your own
you can transcend what's possible
either/or? neither for me
call me by god’s chosen name
I know the words that feel right for me
“I am that I am” that I am
k.a.castagno 2024
recommended reading
the public universal friend: jemima wilkinson and religious enthusiasm in revolutionary america by paul b. moyer. 2015.
the person formerly known as jemima wilkinson by adam morris, excerpted from american messiahs: false prophets of a damned nation. 2019.
f is for friend who did not have gender. history is gay podcast. 2018.